What an amazing Dad, she is very fortunate to have you! That is so wonderful you care about it to that extent and do what you do thinking of her. I can guarantee there are plenty of fathers out there that don't connect on that level. --Yes I am thinking I am going to miss that feeling of being literally euphoric when I hear my favorite great mixes if this thing doesn't balance out at least to where my ears match somewhat again.Shooshie wrote: Now, when I'm mixing, I first mix for equal channels, centered sound. Not the same as mono, but not much different, either. Then I try to see how much stereo space I can impose on that without losing any of the main audio in either ear. Sometimes I have to abandon that approach and just go ahead and mix as I always did. I created a mixer headphone for her that combined all sound in one ear, and gave her the ability to flip phase in one channel. It was complicated with lots of wires, and she never really used it much. She figured she had to learn to compensate, anyway, so why try to avoid it? But I can't help but try first to mix for my little girl, now a dynamic woman who has surpassed me in almost everything. Still, when I reach for the pan knob, it feels like the pain knob. I have to pause a second and remember that there's still a world of folks with both their ears, and that it's right to do that. Then I'm ok, and can create my sound fields. But I still make a version for her, even though she'll never hear most of them.
Shooshie
My ears were worse today and now some voices in some situations sound like robots. The good news is my ENT was great. (And she has a friend that I remind her off, who I have met a few times -small world--) There is no indication of fluid causing the problem, and I do have a huge sudden dip in my left ear starting from 500HZ dropping 30DB to what is considered 'mild' at 1000HZ, back up to 2000HZ matching my right ear, then both dropping off together down 30HZ (Moderate) then my right becomes stable after, and my left continues down another 10DB.
I would have thought this would all just be a volume difference, but instead I actually start to hear the 'artifacts' sound where there is the second pitch but still sounds mostly in tune at around A3, then they start to separate more into honkey tonk piano G4, then pitches start to spread all the way to sounding 1/4 higher IN THE LEFT EAR at C6 or so, then here is the wild one-- they are nearly a 1/2 step apart around C7, the bad ear being higher (not lower).
Anyway, she said we should treat it as viral, prescribed a Prednisone regiment, and also referred me to the big league Hearing Specialists (and contacted them for me to ask them to take me right in). They are connected to the major hospital in the area that people come from all over to go to and they let me right it. The Doctor appears to be very good and wanted to see her prescription, which he approved, and also suggested a three day injected steroid treatment with the highest dose that has had favorable results. (from a compounding pharmacy). I agreed of course. The injection was absolutely horrible and for a moment I was considering not doing it again---but I intend to continue now after thinking about how my hearing got worse today before the treatment and there seems to be very little risk with this treatment from what I can find in my internet research. They will do another test tomorrow before the second injection. They don't expect results that quick though but it will be good to compare to today's test.
I found out this evening that this doctor is very respected by other doctors in the area, (small world again, friends husband knows him quite well and they had dinner with the Dr. and his wife recently --what are the odds!?!), so that was a nice surprise and is helping me keep some hope and confidence. The Dr. treating me said the fact that I didn't have what is considered 'sever' loss and that the left ear versus right ear loss is in lower frequency's, I had no dizziness, and I am acting within two weeks of first onset which evidently is HUGE, that my prospects are good. Another thing nagging at me is what if I have something else. Just the weirdness of the extra tones in my ear. All the other tests of middle ear, speech recognition, ear drums etc. looked really good though. They also recommend an MRI to look for a tumor (which happens in 3% of cases, but you can't wait for that or you miss the window for treatment.)
I am thinking I am hearing the harmonics possibly out of tune since the mid notes are being subdued so I am more of the harmonics that now have a higher volume in comparison? But why so out of tune? And why that 'artifact' sounding thing. Maybe there is some internal 'mixing room' in my head stuff happening simply caused by the volume differences between different notes combined with two ears? (I am only moderately up to speed in acoustics if that). Ugghh.
Thanks for all of the comforting comments that let me know I can probably adjust somehow whatever the outcome. I truly appreciate it especially coming from all of you.
Life just does this stuff sometimes and we only have so much control.